KayzCorner

Drunk I remember watching him stumbling into the house his voice so loud he woke the neighbors screaming and yelling as he told our mom how everything was her fault, the way he turned out was her fault! And I promised I would never get drunk. I hid behind the couch with my hands over my ears as my house became a court room of accusations, debates, and sentences as doors were slammed and the sound of crashing noise could be heard from the basement as fists were put through dry wall. And I swore I would never get drunk. Turning up the radio a little bit louder to drown out the sound of stomach contents being emptied into water, turning up the tv when his hands were shackled because we had the right to remain silent, we wouldn’t say goodbye this time. And I vowed I would never get drunk. Watching a 6 year old girl walk up to a waitress and apologized for her  mom’s inebriated antics with a smile of a seasoned actress. Later, she made herself as small as she could be with

Just a poem I wrote when I was in high school. Don’t tell me that you know me, cause you don’t. Don’t say you’ll always be right there cause I know you really won’t. I won’t try and be your friend cause I know you’ll never stay. Sooner or later they all tend to forget  me anyway. I feel so cold, I’m really numb; Tell me how could I be so dumb, to think that I could escape and maybe become something great.  Please oh please, please oh please, please don’t look like that at me. Heartless, heartless I hear them say. Is that all they think of me? Just because I’m not like you doesn’t mean I don’t have feelings too! late at night I sob and cry, cut myself and wish to die.  But I’m not sure if they’d care even if they saw me there.  Now ask me why I never try, Why I go to run and hide. The mask I wear is far too thin and I’m not comfortable in my skin. I say I’ll change it, wait and see! I’ll become a somebody! But the truth is I don’t think I can, unless I changed all that